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LAN parties are fun -- even small ones. I had one today with about 6 ppl overall; Small, but it was a good time. I used to enjoy em because it gave me a chance to socalize ( something I never did). Now that I am more social I find that they are still quite fun. Games for me are a form of Escapism and being able to forget about responsibilities for a day and just chill out with friends playing games can be quite the dopamine enhancing experience.

Tomorrow is Tuesday.
I'd be looking forward to this week if it werent for my english and math class.
I was reflecting on this year the other day and realized that those classes are my main sources of stress and anxiety.

I think my birthday is coming up. I'll be 17. The only real highlight is i'll be able to drive as late as I want -- but I dont really think that will be any different than now.

I think I need to sleep;

-David

and/or sucrose

Its sunday -- weekend has come and gone. Luckily, tomorrow is presidents day so I get to stay outta school for another 24 hours. In celebration, I've decided to host a LAN party;
It was last minute -- so I dont know how well it will go, but it has to be better than sitting around all day.

This weekends goin by okay, I've basically spent it chillin out at ppl's houses -- or back here. Lately lotsa people have found entertainment in my room -- I think its because I have internet,music,dvd's,surroundsound,and cable all in a comfortable setting.

Yesterday I went out to outback w/ lane and brittany -- which was fun. I only met Brittany once before for about 30 seconds -- so it was neet getting to meet a new person/make a new freind.

I've been in a foul mood today for some reason, I just realized it a little while ago. There's so much shit thats going on lately and with my dad all but convinced hes gonna lose his job in the next month, I dont know what im doing anymore. Despite the happy appearance I put on for friends and family, I've been going crazy, anxiety, apathy.ect/ for the last couple months.

Hopefully tomorrow wont suck, and today will get better. If anyone that reads this has family that works at SRS -- you have my sympathy;

-David