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Little Circles

2010-09-08T15:44:00.001-07:00

Little circles
The comfort of Repetition

Defining constraints

Impromptu regulation

Disguised captivity

Lacking of Rendition

2009-02-09T05:57:00.001-08:00

Content to be quiet.

2009-02-08T18:52:00.000-08:00

Basking in the sun
Such a beautiful day.
The orange rays seem to run
Laps all along the way.

Walking with yourself.
Observing the way
Everyone is interacting
With the warm light of the day.

Content to be quiet
I truley must say
Lost in my thoughts
Love this short life, I pray.

Out of control.

2009-01-30T09:00:00.001-08:00

Two trains swimming laps down the tracks. Simplified logistics making lines back and forth. Pictures painted redefining the mundane. Two trains set to collide. Simple calculations thwarted by reality. Chugging along with nowhere to turn. Apply the brakes - physics simply cannot compensate for this realized disaster - Tensions high and fate is inevitable. Destruction. Rage. Deadlines failed. Cargo lost. These two trains will soon lose purpose. Moved from practical to symbol of carelessness in planning. Moments away - soon to be lost. At the last moment the rails switch. The conductors pass by with little more than a glimpse at their potential fate. These two trains, back on their projected courses. Past anxieties and worries. Attack and release. Sudden calm - just moving forward. Making this line. Completing its purpose. These two trains - mundane and relaxed. Continue forward; a product of routine.

Bodhisattva

2009-01-29T15:13:00.000-08:00

Little Buddha
Sitting so proud
Happy to be
Enlightened and free

Little Buddha
Up on my desk
Teach anattā to me
So I can be free

Little Buddha
On a little perch
Searching for Nirvana
Establishing Theravada

Beauty in Art

2009-01-26T06:33:00.000-08:00

As I observe these people
Lost in their art
Creating these sounds
Destroying conventions
Manifesting the emotional
Into the tangeable
I feel a glimpse of remorse
For a single strum, note, or brushstroke
Represents a pain, obsession, and psyche
That is necessary to create
Beauty in art.

Grooving down

2009-01-19T06:33:00.001-08:00

Grooving on down
Along side of the street
Slick tunes and slick clothes
From his head down to his feet

A cigarette behind the ear
True mark of a man
Be it Camel or Marlboro
The ultimate judge of character

Sipping on some coffee
Strong espresso with milk
Productivity's salutations
Complete with heart palpitations

Last but not least,
Some 5:00 stubble
Scratchy and rugged
Hes grooving through the week

Wanderlust

2009-01-04T00:14:00.001-08:00

Anxious and ready to go
This wonderlust is soon going to blow
Things out of proportion
The timing is right
To leave and experience
Until my mind is set right

Ranting and Raving
All the while subdued
Running in circles
While your mind can conclude
This life is just wrong
Meddled and Confused
This wonderlust will encompass
All hopes to defuse

The past and its horrors
Bad memories aloof
Subconsciously angry
This feat would defuse
All rage and contempt
Built up from the past
This wonderlust saves me
For good or for bad.

Inner Calm

2008-11-17T18:57:00.000-08:00

Today is new.
Armed with an inner calm
With steady hands
With quiet eyes.
Quietly completing tasks
Checking off a list
Until all of it is done.
Today is new.
Yet things have not changed
For there are many more lists
And fewer days to finish.
The lamp is just about out of fuel.
The spark getting dim.
These steady hands
Diligantly working away
This inner calm
More frightening than the storm
That rages on inside
Behind those quiet eyes
Patiently checking off a list.

Step by Step

2008-10-29T21:09:00.000-07:00

Step by step, closer to your goals
Accomplishing just to achieve.
Armed with an uncanny textbook wit
This academic joy ride at an end.
Thrust into the wild
Uncertain and Huge
Life's little lessons
Life's little mistakes
All yours for the picking
For better
For worse
Step by step, closer to your goas
Faithfully we leap
Into the uncertain.

Crumbling delusions

2008-10-05T18:55:00.000-07:00

Happiness and joy
Running wild and rampant
Freedom to breathe
This kingdom of will.
Built around a keystone
Of delusion and lies

At first just a crack
Thin as hair
Along the edge
Just a minor dissapointment
A daylong setback
Filled with introspection
Emptied with tears.

The foundation is strong
Happiness still exists
Though the fracture continues
To grow and web out.
Second guesses
Along with some doubts
But all is well
Delusional and bliss

Time moves on
For good and for bad
The crack remains
Like a sore in your mouth
A subtle reminder
Of buried emotion
And hidden memories

Pieces fall off
The foundation is weak
These crumbling delusions
Once a beautiful wall
Protecting. Comforting. Relieving.
Now a heap of ruins
Choking on dust
Of the past regrets
These crumbling delusions
Too weak to deceive.

Naked and alone
Exposed to thought
Weathered by experience
Hardened by necessity
Crumbling delusions
Of happiness
Of safety.

Such is this life
With nothing to blame
But these childish thoughts
Juvenile dreams
Fundamentally flawed
And tragically ended.

Shuffle and Repeat

2008-07-31T23:56:00.000-07:00

Shuffle and repeat
These events in life.
Decisions. Emotions. Outcomes.
Sifting through like clockwork.
Popping up and reminding;
That we don't change
Deep inside
We're helpless to resist;
How we act
What we say
Just electricity flashing
Inside our empty heads
We're on shuffle and repeat
Cause people don't change.
They just follow the pattern
That is set too soon.
But then there is hope
Of something new
To break the cycle
Destroy the machine.
Life takes hold,
Meaning comes back.
Shuffle and Repeat.
It leaves you behind
Only to wait once again
For another short glimpse
A new sign of sorts
For a brief burst of bliss
A smile perhaps?
Or even a kiss.
But Shuffle and Repeat
Once again to disappoint.
Familiarity sinks in.
Loneliness and deceit.

2008-07-31T08:39:00.001-07:00

Wishing for catastrophe
Waiting for the end of days.
Wanting something bad to come.
Life's too short, but way too long.
Hoping for a way to say
How I feel inside today
Hate how i feel this way
Numb. Conquered. Finished.
Spiral down towards dismay
Sitting. Wishing. Waiting
Life's too short, but way too long.

As you're staring at the sun.

2008-07-21T22:54:00.000-07:00

I went to the beach today. It was very very hot - but enjoyable. After copious amounts of fun the night before it was def. fun to just float; Tomorrow my escapade to Charleston will end and I get to go back to the drudgery of poverty, physical therapy, and moving out of my apartment. Then I start school and who knows from there. This trip has been worth it though, I have gotten a chance to catch up with some good friends and also to relax and reset my mind. Hopefully this next year will be kinder to me than the last two. I don't think I can handle too many more shenanigans in my life at this point. I think this is the first blog in years I've just documented things. Go figure. --D

Oh lonely summer.

2008-07-19T23:42:00.000-07:00

Long days and longer nights - sleeping, laughing, writing, and listening. Hot sun followed by bright moonlight. Summer days sweeping by, like sand on a windy day. Sunrises and Sunsets. Awake at all hours. What more could I ask for? Life is so beautiful and unique. I only wish I had someone to share it with.

2008-07-16T17:17:00.000-07:00

FUCK.

Numb again.

2008-07-11T22:35:00.000-07:00

Progression. Beginning. Ending. Living for nothing. Thoughts swirling all around in a fucked up rhythm. Scared of change. Scared of the past. Scared of monotony. Consequences all around. Running down the bottle and ashing out the window. Restless nights until life just goes numb.

Hazy

2008-06-15T10:05:00.000-07:00

With an average of 3 hours a night of sleep for the last couple of weeks, life has gotten somewhat hazy. I don't sleep because my shoulder hurts, so I drink coffee, write, and lurk around the innards of of the internet late into the night when most people are dreaming away. Sappy as it sounds, I wish there was someone out there I could spend a day with taking naps and watching movies together. A little vacation from lonliness so to speak. Unfortunately I just have unfriendly electrical signals shooting down the nerves in my arm to keep me company. Something in my life feels terribly wrong. It is that gut feeling that something bad is going on constantly screaming in the back of your head. I only wish gut feelings werent so ambiguous and I knew what it was. Until that discovery I'll probably work on some writings and be posting them up and around here. Cheers.

Beautiful

2008-06-12T23:32:00.000-07:00

What a beautiful thing
To say what you think
to someone.
That does not judge
That does not joke
Who simply..
Understands.
The thing that drives,
Someone to strive
to better them self
Inside
Outside
And in between.
Oh, what a beautiful thing,
To meet someone
That sees your level.
For who you are.
By actions
By thoughts
By memories.

Apocalypse

2008-04-23T18:08:00.001-07:00

lpyDavid King
Religion 371
4/23/08
Times End
At first glance,
Time is such a wonderful thing.
Taking tragedies and pain,
Occurring throughout life
Burying them deep and far
Into the depth of the past.
Recovery, growth, enlightenment.
But at what cost to us
Does time bring in exchange?
We lay here blind to the fact
That we’re speeding
100 miles an hour into the dark
Completely blind to the future.
As time heals it also breaks down
Running out of gas, nothing in sight.
It disorients us to once vivid thoughts
Lost in the wilderness and no way back.
The great mystery of what happens
When the time is up.
Cliffs all around, the brakes are out.
The bridge crumbles
Between two mountaintops
Careening into an abyss
With fire all around
Blinding terror
Fills into our heads.
The nervous fear of judgment
Weighing our souls,
Probing our minds.
Tumbling downwards,
Everything slows down.
Experiences, decisions, actions
Disassemble piece by piece.
Until nothing is left
But an empty shell.
Then transformation occurs
The broken pieces restructure
Into a hearty summation
Of an entire life.
The good and the bad
But then so suddenly, the suspense is up,
The terror is gone.
A new being exists,
Where the old shell once sat.
Clarity sinks in. Life is beautiful.
But then, out of nowhere, it carries us back
Into the dark, lost and confused.
But for the perceptive, there is a bright spot
Where they sit and wait.
For time to carry them home.
Into a new existence
Of understanding and peace.
So time is a strange thing.
That is both a gift and a curse
But in reality, time is merely a medium
In which we all travel.
Closer to our eternity,
What ever it may be.
Reliving our life
Closer to our judgment.
No favorites or special treatment.
5 billion class C travelers.
Careening through existence
The only difference
Is this terrifying journey,
Is in your head.
You finally hit the bottom
Of the darkened abyss.
Realization sinks in,
You’ve figured it out.
Lifelong mysteries and questions
Answered in whole
And then,
At the peak of this knowledge
Followed by Nothing.

The Weekend

2007-10-01T04:42:00.000-07:00

Time and time again, a phenomena occurs. A weekend where nothing makes sense but everything seems right. Blurry memories, desperate confusion, uncomfortably blissful yet comfortably numb. Always moving, shifting, revolving. Flashes of light and memories tumbling around in a delirious mind. Cheering, Laughing, Running, Hiding. Mixed emotions suppressed by an over saturation of the mind and body. In and out, sleepless nights and tired mornings. Monetary failure and unclear eyes. Time and time again this phenomena occurs, where everything is okay - and nothing is exactly right.

sleep

2007-09-27T08:41:00.000-07:00

Slowing down, his pulse is dropping. Electricity fires less and less in the brain. Moving in synch with the erratic beat of his music. Thoughts end before they begin, rythm takes over. Spinning, reality crashes to a halt. Slowing, heart beat is weak. Laying in his bed - he plummets into bliss.

Jittery

2007-09-25T01:20:00.000-07:00

Jittering. His leg never stops. Constantly moving, searching, roaming. Looking for what cannot be found. Restless turning at night. Laughless and sleepless, morning comes all too quick. Futher into ceasless chain of thought. A young man is weary, of time that is spent: in contemplation of his life, both vibrant and dull. So here he sits, another restless night. Alone in his room, just lost in his thoughts.

Comfortably Cynical

2007-09-18T02:38:00.000-07:00

When life kicks us down, oh so many times,
We learn to look for the best in everything.
But when life kicks us down, just one too many times,
We learn to stop putting our hope in anything.

Countless times a brilliant ray brightens our face,
Only to be blotted out by such a dark cloud -
That no matter how fast we run, how quick our pace,
It quenches our spirit with a gloomy shroud.

When nothing is right and everything seems off,
Time and time again, we make ourselves rigid.
Until something comes along, that makes us soft,
And making us forget being weak and timid.

Then one day, the realization sets in,
Our lives become monotone and clinical.
So everything is easier, with apathy we win.
We realize we've become comfortably cynical.

By looking at everything with no expectations,
We quickly learn that nobody can disappoint.
No boundaries, no feelings, no realizations,
We say to ourselves, what's the point?

Music

2007-09-06T23:00:00.000-07:00

Always surrounded, never fades. Fills your head in countless ways. With thoughts and sounds, concepts and truths. Songs for all occasions, faces, memories. Music comprises your soul and heart. Every aspect of life is defined by this gift. Walking to an increadible beat or humming such a beautiful verse. Life's okay, despite its pain. Because this harmony will carry through the toughest ride. So listen and keep track of the faintest beat. Holding on to it even while your hearing fades. Fainter and Fainter, the beat grows weak. Someone whose soul is music, doomed to be deaf. Time will pass on and memories wil fade, until sound is forgotten. Then the despair, will sink in and crush. What's left of the soul? There's definately not much. Until nothing's left to push you deeper. Then all of a sudden, an eerie peace. For if you're at the bottom, there's nothing left to lose. For the first time in ages, sleep sets in. Upon waking up its a most beautiful day. Everything's brighter, tastier, better. Slowly climbing, day by day. Out of the hole - happy as can be. Until the next time - when a soul is crushed. Life just plays out that way. Day by day, year by year, moment by moment.

Relief

2007-09-06T10:00:00.000-07:00

Relief. Take a deep breath. Put the past behind. Strive for a better tomorrow. Breathe. Don't forget to look forward. Too much going on to take in at once. Smile. Not nearly as lonely as once thought. Lots of love overpowers negativity. Whats done is done. Relax. Wake up and look at everyone around. Never alone. Always in good hands. Move. progress through life, never swaying, never falling, and never abandoned.

-D

Wake up

2007-09-02T08:33:00.000-07:00

Wake up. Hard to breathe. Suddenly immersed underneath. A great foggy haze, where nothing's quite right. Flashing memories and glimpses of reality. Nervous laughter and restless sleep. One drink too many, too many hours behind. Where once was a fully conscious entity, only a shell remains. Hollowed eyes and shorter breaths. Living to slowly waste away. Wake up. Get out of this fog. So much potential. Such a beautiful person. Wake up. Lets get out with each other. Hand in hand until we escape this thing. Until the sky is clearer and our eyes are clear. Wake up. Get out of this loop. Before its too late. And opportunity is lost. Clear head and healthy eyes. The fog is lifting - confusion rests. So wake up and look around. What once was dead is still there. Everyone's waiting, that holds you in their hearts. So hand in hand, let's go and greet them. For what was once lost was just found again. Wake up and find our peace.

Click and Clank

2007-07-16T23:06:00.003-07:00

Click Clank.

The room is spinning around your glass.
Nobody here to stop you,
We need encouragement instead of rest.
Click Clank.
Another shot for all.
Keep drinking it round and letting them down
There's nothing to do but fall.
Click Clank.
Spinning round and round.
The whole of your existence
Flushed into the ground.
Click Clank.
We're calling out the beast.
Nothing left to throw away
Good stories to tell at least.
Click Clank.
Our lives are slowly wearing down.
Demons that dwell in our minds.
Glasses raised, we shoot them out.
Click Clank.

Just observe

2007-07-16T23:06:00.001-07:00

Just sit and observe
The atrocities in life.
Friends fighting friends,
things never seem right.
Everything collapses,
Things gone awry.
But to us who just watch,
We can see the big lie.
They take it for granted,
The things that they have.
Hurting those who are close,
They keep on pushing
Until they go too far,
And ruin what they had.
I always observe,
The atrocities we bring.
No hurt or pain conserved,
The winner is lost.
So I just sit and observe,
Thes troubling things.
Helpless and useless,
To amend or protect.
So just sit and observe
And hope you can learn
We all affect each other
For good or for worse.

2007-06-12T21:29:00.001-07:00

At first glance,
Time is such a wonderful thing
Taking tragedies and pain
Burying them deep and far.
Recovery, growth, enlightenment.
But at what cost to us
Does time bring in exchange?
We lay here blind to the fact
That we’re speeding
100 miles an hour in the dark
Completely blind to the future.
As time heals it also breaks down
Running out of gas, nothing in sight.
It disorients us to once vivid thoughts
Lost in the wilderness and no way back.
The great mystery of what happens
When the time is up.
Cliffs all around, the brakes are out.
But then so suddenly, the suspense is up.
Clarity sinks in. Life is beautiful.
But then, out of nowhere, it carries us back
Into the dark, lost and confused.
But for the lucky, there is a bright spot
Where they sit and wait.
For time to carry them home.
So time is a strange thing.
That is both a gift and a curse
But in reality, time is merely a medium
In which we all travel.
No favorites or special treatment.
5 billion class C travelers.
The only difference
In this terrifying journey,
Is in your head.

Free

2007-05-22T21:04:00.000-07:00

Oh what great a gift it is
To be free of you
And all of your chains.
To live life with certainty,
Being Happy with myself.
Oh the joy of waking up.
To look up and smile,
And be free from shame.
No more guessing,
The answer is clear.
I’m free from your hell,
No longer so near.
So I’ve learned to love
And learned to live.
But I have also learned
How to heal and be free.
So I’ll never forget
The times we have shared.
But I do not regret
Where life has taken me.
So I wish you the best
But I no longer care
What you wish of me.
For I am now free.

Pushing it.

2007-04-30T13:37:00.000-07:00

Pushing it.
Sleeplessness and parties.
Bruised.
Physically and Mentally.
Healing;
Worth much more.
I look up and see comfort.
When before I saw nothing.
So I keep pushing it.
Seeing where I go.
Just one more week left.
Thousands of miles and dollars.
Living my life and pushing my boundaries.
So I've let loose in every which way.
And I finally realize,
That I am completely free.
To sit here and torture,
Thinking of what's lost.
Or to keep moving and learning.
That Life is not lost.
So I will pick the latter
From this day on out.
Because life is worth too much
To dwell on one thought.
So tonight I will keep
Pushing myself hard.
So I do not repeat
My past nightmares.
I fight in my head,
Thoughts of things that were.
But today I have won.
My civil war.
So I keep pushing.
Until nothing is left,
Except for myself
And nothing else.

Another year passed.

2007-04-25T12:28:00.000-07:00

Tic Toc .
Another year passed.
nineteen going on twenty.
lots has changed.
lots has remained.
Coming out of spring,
Much stronger than before.
A new season and a new year
In this confusing life.
Irresponsible at times,
Dependable at others.
Friends have stayed true.
Others have dropped out.
So this year I will celebrate,
All the people in my life:
That I care about,
And that care about me.
So Tic Toc
Time continues to move.
A new season awaits
And new situations will occur.
I look forward, finally releasing the past.
I just hope that everyone,
will be able to see
That I am still myself.
Although a little shakey,
I have found my personality again.
On and off, It grows stronger now.
All are welcome, into my heart,
That accept this and want to celebrate
Time as it moves on.

Cannot grasp

2007-04-23T13:59:00.000-07:00

I write things;
Messages, blogs, journals.
Because it documents
Emotion.
Feeling.
Thoughts.
But there’s something
That I cannot seem to grasp.
This metaphysical leash,
Attached to my heart.

That’s keeping me from

Enjoying things fully.
It’s a severed string,
Barely anything left.
That I try so hard to break,
Live.
Learn.
Forget.
But then I remember,
Why that string ever attached.
The things said,
The things done,
And it almost makes it worth,
All that has passed.
This is merely a sample,
Of my thoughts circling,
Through my heart and my head.
But I am left a rock,
With no room to trust.
Until this string is broken,
Or securely reattached.

With glimmering hope.

2007-04-19T14:23:00.000-07:00

Life has gone on,
With this declining hope.
Day by day by day,
Trudging along.
Enthusiasm lost,
Humor destroyed.
It's all been serious,
Exhaustingly overwhelming.
Looking back on the past,
Anticipating the future.
Roaming through the present,
With no mind of what to do.
But life went on,
And things draw to an end.
Realization sinks in.
Almost there.
Looking at accomplishments,
Through this troubling time.
There's a glimmering hope,
That things will be fine.
So keep trudging on,
Towards this new idea.
The splendid thought,
That the past is so distraught:
That things will improve
That life will progress.
So keep trudging on.
With this new glimmering hope.

Flowing throughout.

2007-04-17T21:06:00.000-07:00

This present anxiety,
Like nails on a chalkboard.
The screeching sound,
A terrible product of friction.
Nervous habits,
Nervous laughter.
Laughing
When logic screams solemn.

This gnawing anxiety,

Shaking all over.
Unsure of what to do,
Unsure of what to say.
Thoughts
Flowing like water,
Into a bottomless chasm.
Rubbing away,
Creating a schism.
This throbbing anxiety,
Blacking out thoughts.
Scared to reply,
Scared to ignore.
This wicked anxiety,
Consuming it's prey.

Take a deep breath.

2007-04-16T12:46:00.000-07:00

Take a deep breath, and let it all out.
The smoke curls around my nose, repungent and vile.
Sleepless and drained, I lay in pieces.
My heart still loves, but I couldn't keep up.
I do not hate or feel regret.
I say the truth and that's it.
So I lay here, moving day by day.
There is a slight relief, knowing I won't be torn anymore.
When you hit the bottom, there's that one comfort.
So I lay here, moving day by day.
Unwilling to hate or feel any more anger.
I just sit here and wait, for the pieces to pick up.
Fear is a strange thing.
It eats away and makes us angry.
Bad things said, bad things done.
When you just wanted to help, the hurt goes deeper.
So I lay here, with the filthy smoke curling around my nose.
With no hate or resentment.
Just calm defeat.

As I look to the sky.

2007-04-07T18:33:00.000-07:00

I look up to the sky, not always knowing what waits there.

Our existence argues perfection, way up through the air.

Oh God, I cry, show me yourself.

Cast a light into the dark.

Through doubt and through grief.

Through good and through bad.

Grant me the faith I once had.

Many of us wonder, what lies behind the night sky.

We look up into the heavens and sometimes we cry.

For this doubt is so great, we have no clue.

How we could lose faith in you, yet you show through.

With every child born and every act of love.

We turn our backs and continue to shove.

The lights go off, and we’re in the dark.

I want to cry out and beg for another start.

So my God, show yourself again.

So that you could fill my heart.

Wipe out doubt, and misery, and hate.

Give me hope before it’s too late.

I look up in the sky, not knowing what’s there.

And I pray these things, but also to share.

With all that don’t know, or refuse to state.

That something more could be up there.

So I look to the sky, with tears full of grief.

And I pray all these things, upon a falling leaf.

-D

Loneliness is key.

2007-04-01T21:28:00.001-07:00

Just keep turning it,
It all means nothing
You play your games.
Love me.
Love me not.
Loneliness is the key.
To feeling better.
Right?
Lets get close,
Then run away.
I'm here to help
So you lock me out.
Life's not fair,
So push away.
Cause' loneliness is key.
I didn't give up.
So you got scared.
Push it deep.
I'm almost gone
I love you truly.
So run away.
Life's about you
Keeping your emotions
Locked up tight.
I didn't leave you,
so pretend you like:
The things I do,
The places we go.
Then when we're close at night
Just turn it deep.
I didn't quit,
So you threw it in.
Nothing mattered;
It was all a lie.
Just keep turning it,
The blade goes deep.
Loneliness is key,
to sorting it out.
Wisdom,
Truth,
Loyalty,
Make you shout.
Just keep turning it now.
Almost there.
you're pushing me out.
you know how.
it's like before.
only not so hard.
I didn't quit
So you gotta slit,
The one thing that stays
Through good and through bad.
Just keep turning it in.
Just keep turning it deep.
Keep running away.
Loneliness is key.

Pleading with yourself.

2007-03-21T17:37:00.000-07:00

Flash. The news is delivered. All hopes and dreams are shattered. Begging. Pleading until you are out of breath. What happened cannot be changed. You beg with logic, trying to change it's mind. Anger. You accuse, shout. Your reasoning is the same. You cannot accept this. Not now. Distracting. You bring everything up. The good and the bad. Nothing can distract this now. It is in a corner, ready to spring. The slow realization of defeat is sinking in. Your stomach starts to go first. Nausea. The sinking feeling that cannot be fixed. Your mouth is watering, but you hold it back. Life is spinning in circles. Balance. You fall to the ground. Logic has left you and so has dignity. It spins faster now. Blood. Rushes through your head. You hear your pulse beating through your ears. Physical and mental collapse draw closer. Denial. Running now. Hoping it was a dream. You cannot focus on anything. This world has just ended and you were not ready. Ravaged. You lose all hope.

This was just an experience I had a while ago, I'm fine though. It's just something I wanted to write down before I forget about it. -David

Shaped by our surroundings.

2007-03-21T17:36:00.000-07:00

Society seems to be crumbling. There is no honor anymore. People do not look out for each other. Where the worst that could happen in a situation at one point in time would be a little fight or scuffle, it now almost always ends up with an ambulance rushing a gun-victim to the hospital, or worse yet - the morgue. One must ask themselves ... "how have we gotten like this?"

I was born 18 years ago in a small town in Pennsylvania. I was lucky, in a way, to be born into a very large, close, and strong family. I was raised by everyone in my family. I was a very sickly kid, so everyone took care of me. I spent most of my early childhood confined to the house, where I was exposed to adults, their conversations, and their wisdom much more than other healthy kids of my age.

I quickly learned to observe things, actions, and their impact on their surroundings. A lot of my knowledge and wisdom was quickly shattered when I was at an age where I could be alone. My learning curve was quickly shunted and instead, I was left to spend many hours with a television. T.V., although entertaining, could never captivate my attention. The moment I began to get healthy enough to venture away from the house, my imagination had grown larger than the cheap broadcasting offered to me.

It was not until later years that I realized how saturated the average person's life is. I was born into a society raped over and over again by the relentless barrage of information being pumped into our every orifice. Cell phones quickly pushed our need to be connected to a constant 24 hours a day 7 days a week status. Our day has been split up so much that we actually have a need to abbreviate 3 and 4 letter words.

Today, I found myself checking the news on three different sites, texting someone, and having two simultaneous conversations over AIM. All of this was going on in the background while I was studying for a midterm. Our minds have become accustomed to constant stimulation. Thought, reflection, meditation, and relaxation are terms that died with my parent's generation.

We are a generation of constant change, instant gratification, short term memory, skewed priorities, and selfishness that our parents and grandparents could not even fathom.

So why are our tempers so short? Why do we ignore terrible things happening to others? Because we're too preoccupied with ourselves, we're expecting a phone call, expecting a text, our time has been so carefully divided that we do not have any left to think about what we are doing. If you sit down and analyze your typical day, you quickly realize that you're pissing away most of your life.

We are pacifying ourselves, being blind to the fact that we carry the responsibility for change.

Ask yourself why you believe and act the way you do. Talk to other people and find out what they think and believe. While people in our society still have the capacity to think, go out and stimulate that one thing that separates us from other animals.

Early morning..

2005-09-06T03:18:00.000-07:00

Every few months or so, David will indulge in staying up until the asscrack of dawn and having a very Intelligent conversation about a very serious topic whilst sitting on his back porch smoking a cigarette.

This weekend, I have done it three times.

I have many friends, but only two or three whom I could talk about anything with. Even that kind of honesty with my closest friends was unheard of for the most part of my life. I have always been closed in until this past few months. I hope i'm just becoming more mature.

I believe that if you cannot share your most guarded secrets and memories with someone, than you will not ever be able to relax. I've made mistakes in my life before, but now I just laugh about them and move onwards.

Peeps.

2005-08-21T04:54:00.000-07:00

I have been away from some of my old habits/obsessions lately (such as blogger);

This summer has been quite interesting - and it has taken me about two weeks to adjust to school, responsibility, and whatnot again.

After I got back from my internship in Indiana, I had a great time back in Aiken - I was able to just relax and hang out with friends almost every day for several weeks just enjoying my life.

School isn't really too bad though; It's my senior year and I only go until 1:45 every day. With my extra time, I try to take a few hours every day to chill out. I'm trying not to slack off this year (in anything), which is a very tough thing to do.

-

Cell phones are ruining our lives.

There is never a moment of peace or a time when we can completely disconnect at the end of the day and wind down. There is always some way for a person to get ahold of you night and day. People work 24/7 in a sense. When they arent at work, there is always a leash around their neck; They are a phonecall away from dropping everything and running back to their job. In a way, that makes me respect people with simple meanial jobs even more. They work hard outside (mowing lawns, working on cars, .ect) then they come home. I do not believe the human body or mind is designed for the pressure that society, phones, employers, & others put on it.

We treat each other like shit in an era where boundries are just lines on a map that we could easily cross any time in a plane or a car.

Serene

2005-08-01T20:53:00.000-07:00

Here I am, curled up in a large windowsill listening to the ocean right outside my window completely at peace. I love the beach; not only for the exotic tropical experience that marketing companies around the world put into my head, but also for the dark hours when only a few people venture across the endless stretch of sand guided by moonlight and a driving sense of ease. The best time to walk on a beach is 2 to 3 hours before the sun rises when all is still dark. The prospect of having this beautiful place to myself for some hours before anyone else is awake, greed, drives me out each morning. I marvel at the beauty that's found in the simplicity of this place...

Marketing.

2005-07-29T16:57:00.000-07:00

Its interesting how carefully people in marketing choose words that go on advertisements. This morning I took a shower and the only shampoo was a bottle that was for women of color. Now I'm no women, and although i'm a little brown -- I'm far from of color - But it said shampoo on the bottle so I risked it. Luckily -- my hair didn't turn into a honeycomb on top of my head -- or a big afro. It just turned clean. Now, thats horseshit that there needs to be special shampoo for 'women of color'. I mean - - my hair is exactly the same as when I wash it with any other shampoo. This is just an example. Now I know black people generally have different hair than white people - but soap is soap. I really believe that theres nothing different from one shampoo to the others. Marketing really aggrivates me. It makes consumers out to be stupid shmucks who dont know anything. The sad thing is, us consumers play right into that crap. We take everything they feed us and lose our ability and need to think and operate for ourselves. This is yet another problem with our society. I think we're all turning into Vegetables.

-

I'm in Pennsylvania right now, beautiful state and todays a beautiful day. If I remember i'll post some pictures of this place later.

-Dav.Di

Back in action

2005-07-24T18:38:00.000-07:00

I got back into town on Monday from my internship. It was great. Besides learning a lot, I enjoyed staying with that branch of my family. I think staying close to your entire family is a great thing. I grew up being raised by all my aunts, uncles, grand parents, and even great aunts, uncles, grandparents. I played with all 15 of my cousins. Having a strong family background has really been a great thing. There's always been support when going through tough times and through good times. Thats one of the problems with America these days. Family structure has gone out the window and people are on their own.

--

The song thats playing is,
Modest Mouse :Bukowski

Today made me think of it for some reason.

Tired...

2005-07-13T18:36:00.000-07:00

=Sometimes I wonder what the purpose is in life.

If life goes according to the best of

circumstances, then you will end up working at a

job you enjoy, maybe raising a family. Your kids

will be healthy and grow up to make you proud. By

the time you stop working you and possibly your

spouse will begin to realize how joyous time was

when you were young and how you've dwindled all

of it away. Ideally, you will die at an old age

peacefully and without suffering. You left a

legacy of kids and maybe grand kids, but will

they do anything different than you? Will they

have more of a purpose? That is the ideal life.

Everything would have gone right. Reality sinks

in. Life wasn't that perfect, you just chose to

remember the good parts. You're tired. Maybe

rest is a good thing. Till death do us part. Will

they remember you?

Whiskey in a Jar

2005-07-12T11:09:00.000-07:00

I had a very nasty experience today.

I had a protein milkshake that was supposedly chocolate. Well, I was too lazy to find a blender, so I ended up chewing this milkshake. I think its the worst breakfast I ever had, but regardless I had a lot of protein this morning.

This song is called whiskey in a jar, I dunno who first performed it - -but I know metallica did a cover.

Enjoy.

As I was going over the Cork and Kerry Mountains
I saw Captain Farrell and his money he was countin'
I first produced my pistol and then produced my rapier
I said "Stand and deliver or the devil he may take ya"
I took all of his money and it was a pretty penny
I took all of his money yeah and I brought it home to Molly
She swore that she loved me no never would she leave me
But the devil take that woman, yeah, for you know she tricked me easy
Musha rain dum-a-doo dum-a-da
Whack for my daddy-o
Whack for my daddy-o
There's whiskey in the jar-o
Being drunk and weary I went to Molly's chamber
Takin' my Molly with me, but I never knew the danger
For about six or maybe seven in walked Captain Farrell
I jumped up, fired my pistols, and I shot him with both barrels
Musha rain dum-a-doo dum-a-da, ha, ya
Whack for my daddy-o
Whack for my daddy-o
There's whiskey in the jar-o
Yeah, whiskey, yo, whiskey...
Oh-oh, ya
Now some men like a fishin', but some men like the fowlin'
Some men like to hear, to hear the cannonball a-roarin'
But me, I like sleepin', `specially in my Molly's chamber
But here I am in prison, here I am with a ball and chain, yeah
Musha rain dum-a-doo dum-a-da, ha, ya
Whack for my daddy-o
Whack for my daddy-o
There's whiskey in the jar-o
Whiskey in the jar-o
Musha rain dum-a-doo dum-a-da
Musha rain dum-a-doo dum-a-da, hey
Musha rain dum-a-doo dum-a-da
Musha rain dum-a-doo dum-a-da, ya

Kashmir

2005-07-10T06:05:00.000-07:00

My hair is cut -- and i'm slowly but surely turning brown.

Today I'm going with my cousins to go canoeing which will be interesting, since I've never done that before.

--

This summer I've met a lot of very successful and powerful people. All of them started with nothing and worked for their success. That is something I respect a lot. My family on both sides started out moving to this country poor as dirt, now there are several millionaires and very successful people who have just worked hard. Some people are resentful to the wealthy, but if you really work at it and set your goals you can also become a success.

Theres always exceptions and people who are truly repressed. For those people I just pray and do whatever I can to help them.

--

theres a song called Kashmir, I suggest you listen to it. Its by Led Zeppelin -- or at least covered by them.

--

Hope you all are doing well,.

--dav.di

75% remaining

2005-07-01T18:32:00.000-07:00

I grew up in a family that was never strict about alcohol. I was always able to have wine with dinner -- or even some beer with my dad once in a while. When I moved down to South Carolina and was growing up, I was very suprised to see how horrified people were at the notion of alcohol. Kids were never even allowed a sip of wine. Baptists and other branches of christianity ridiculed us catholics . Yet, people from those very families who were so strict fall victim to alcoholism and irresponsible drinking. I believe that if you restrict someone from something -- and make it a horrible sin to even think about, then that person will strive to experience this forbidden fruit. It seems to be in human nature. I grew up fairly unrestricted and now that I have some independance, I do not really abuse it. I've seen so many people my age make a huge dramatic deal out of miniscule things like relationships, drinking,.ect; the rampant stupidity I observe from my peers makes me very apprehensive of the future when I look back on decisions I make. I'm really sick of all the drama people create. Life is way too short to get caught up in the small things.

-Cough-Choke-GaspPAIN

2005-06-29T04:07:00.000-07:00

This week has been going pretty well;
Indiana is great, I enjoy the job I'm doing and also the people im working under.

On another, less happy note, since around 9:00 last night I have had the worst allergy/sorethroat case :(.
I can hardly swallow anything -- and im really not feelin to great;

Hopefully the meds I took will help me to feel better at least for the first half of today.

I go into work at 7 today and I'll prolly leave at 5:30, so I really don't need to be ill during that time.

Hope none of you are sick;

-Dav.Di

Connectivity

2005-06-22T18:27:00.000-07:00

Right now I'm sitting with my cousins watching startrek and playing on this laptop.

Indiana is fun; Im starting to get into a routine at work -- which is a good thing. I've been working around 9 hours a day but time flies when you keep busy.

Its sad how eager I always am to be connected to the net. If murderers had IM instead of guns then this world would be a happy place.

I'm signing off for the night -- Peace.

-Dav.Di.

Family:

2005-06-21T19:15:00.000-07:00

I'm posting from up in Indiana --
I started work monday this week -- I'm working with a group of 4 people that maintain the network for Cinergy com. There are around 500 computers + servers that they have to maintain.

I'm staying here with my cousin J. ( he's my moms cousin -- so I think that makes us second cousins) and his family. He has a very nice wife and 3 little boys.

The company has been great to me -- I have a car I can use to get back and forth to work; I also have a laptop I can use the month that I am here.

I miss all my Aiken peeps -- but i'll be back the 18th.

Hope you're all having a good summer

-Dav.Di

Leaving.

2005-06-15T09:17:00.000-07:00

Today is my last day in town for the summer (I might have a week or so before school starts back in aiken). Hopefully I'll get to see some of my friends before I leave -- All i've done today was sit here x.x;

I'm looking forward to seein family and workin up in Indiana -- I just wish I had a little more time to stay in Aiken, but you can't have everything.

I will have access to e-mail while i'm up there -- so if anyone that reads this wants to say hey, drop an e-mail at obscene.malfunction@gmail.com

Hope you all have a great summer.

-Dav.Di

oww.

2005-06-09T20:19:00.000-07:00

I was driving to Evan's house today -- and right before I got on Telatha church road ( waiting to turn ) Some guy never saw me and rear ended the shit out of me. He hit his brakes right before he hit me -- but I think he was still going 40-50 mph. It pushed my van into oncoming traffic before I grabbed the wheel and swerved back into my lane.

Luckily noone was seriously injured -- my right arm is very sore since it absorbed most of the impact, but I had x-rays done and nothing is broken.

Hospital waiting rooms piss me off.

Sitting in the hospital waiting room today (for 4 hours) - I realized that I practically grew up in hospitals when I was little. It brought back a flood of suppressed memories and I realized that It wasn't so bad because at least I was breathing today.

Tomorrow im goin to the beach -- I'm gonna be sore from whiplash =(

-Peace

-Dav.Di

Privileged

2005-05-30T04:50:00.000-07:00

I love being a guy. . . if im too lazy to go piss inside, I can just go behind my house in the woods. Not only is it natural -- it's healthy on ocassion to change scenery.

--

Schools over; This week imma be at Danes lake house with some peeps.

Which will be fun.

--

Hope you all have a good summer season

-David

PETA videos on animal cruelity make me hungry

2005-05-26T19:03:00.000-07:00

I would never treat an animal badly intentionally, but I am not phased by the fact that my diet mostly consists an animals pain and sorrow. Veal is tortured baby cow -- but that's only because it tastes better when its tortured. I have a vegitarian cousin that's very involved in animal rights.ect and it gets on my nerves hearing about how eating meat is bad; I love my animal flesh -- I'm proud of the fact that I eat meat.

--

I got some of those clove cigarettes (Djarum Blacks) -- They are pretty good, if you like clove that is. My mom cant breathe with that smell for some reason -- i guess shes allergic. You either like them or hate them -- I personally like em;

--

Last day of exams is tomorrow and then I am done with school - -I'm going to a friends lakehouse from monday to next weekend - - so hopefully I'll be brown by the time I come back.

--

This (school) year went by quickly though it was very stressful.
--

Peace

Electricity fried my switch.

2005-05-21T05:29:00.000-07:00

My faithful switch, 16 delicious ports that were crucial in LAN parties and then my home network once I got broadband. Dead. This switch worked to the very last; it died while it was running during a really bad storm. The storm also killed my telephone. Bastard. All the electronics in my room were running when the storm hit and I was not at home to unplug them -- so I was lucky to have a surge protector (except for on my phone lines).

--

Last night I went to see Star Wars with some buddies. Jeff almost got himself killed driving his saturn -- but I rode with Dane so it wasn't too bad for me. The movie was great, it redeemed lucas for the last 2 crappy movies he put out. The only problem with it is the sappy-love dialogue between Anakin and Padme. Lucas is brilliant at writing stories -- but when it comes to the actual dialogue and in this case romantic dialogue, he is quite lacking. I dont see why people have thrown their lives away for the Star Wars universe though; When I was a kid I was a huge fan. I think its a form of escapism; Lucas began an entire universe detailed down to the different worlds and govt's for these people to escape to -- It is quite appealing, but at some point one has to grow up.

I recommend seeing the movie to you guys though -- unless of course you will get overly attached and camp outside of theaters for the rest of your life.
--
I weighed myself today and I was 180 lbs. I used to be 230 like a year ago; At that time I was fat and angry;

for an example of the old me, check out this old Deadjournal I found -- its from 08/06/2002
Its interesting reading back on old blogs.
--

Gnivil ot Eid

2005-05-18T17:47:00.000-07:00

starting on Monday, I've been eating more protein and going to the gym every day:
Every other day I lift weights.
Every day I dont lift weights I run and do some sort of cardio.
The workouts are all short and intense.

As a result i've already lost around 5 lbs, I'm lifting about 20 lbs more than I was a while ago. Sergey is doing the same thing as I am. We plan on doing this throughout the summer so we are in shape for next year.

I did this a year ago, and lost 40+ lbs doing it -- and I've managed to keep it all off and continue to shape up. So it is an efficient way to get yourself in shape.
--
Schools almost out. I have the rest of this week + next monday and tuesday followed by some half days. The week after school lets out I am going to Dane's lakehouse near Anderson for a week with some buddies of mine. There is a big lake, a house, and a boat there so hopefully i'll be relaxed and brown by the time I come back (I tan really easily because of the portuguese in my blood).
--
My stress levels are dropping, I only have a couple exams I have to worry about and I realized yesterday that I will most likely do fine on them If I dont get anxiety and forget stuff like I normally do. I've been taking life easy and just enjoying things. When I drive-- I always have a window open and just drive slow enjoying the beautiful scenery. People never smile anymore or slow down enough to enjoy their surroundings; until I started slowing down recently I never realized how beautiful everything is. For once I think i'm glad to be alive.
--
I'm really exhausted right now though. This workout schedule does have its flaws, it is very taxing on you physically. I am going to rest for tomorrow.

Cinot Labreh

2005-05-14T21:57:00.000-07:00

When one thinks about it, you realize that your life is a battle to not become what you hate the most.

and so many of us drop our heads in defeat...

--

This weekend has been pretty relaxing.

Friday I skipped school along with just about everyone I know thats not a senior-- It was senior awards day at SAHS, so there was a 3 hour long assembly - and none of the teachers expected students to show.

That mornin I went to the Agusta mall with Bethany -- the problem was neither of us knew how to get there.

I had a vague idea, so we got on the highway to agusta -- but we took one exit too soon and ended up getting horribly lost and just turning off on whatever road we knew the name of ><.
Interestingly enough -- we took a nice little detour past downtown agusta and then bush field where we finally arrived at the mall coming from the other direction 2 hours later.

I always like exploring places though and we both werent in a big hurry so it was all cool.

--

That night I went to evening of the arts at the school. There were some good acts -- some really bad acts -- and then the last band that played had a lot of talent, but the singer just screamed really loud the whole time. They even managed to do a death-metal cover of Enter Sandman. I wasn't thrilled with this because it was just a little too noisy.

After the evening of the arts a groupofus went to chill at Flannigans ice cream place. When they finally closed around 11:30 we headed to sonic to hang out for a bit. Then everyone had to go home but me so I went over to danny's house for a bit and chilled there.

Finally my sister got home and my mother called me from FL telling me I should get home so my sis wouldn't stay up waitin for me.

--

Today was more of a boring day. I just chilled out at my house the majority of the day, then this evening I went to danny's house -- then we got some coffee and watched Blade Trinity.
--

Now my parents are back home, my sister got a parking rediculuous ticket moving into her apartment which I'm very steamed about because her car also died and she's had a generally shitty day -- and I cant go help her because she's in rock hill.

I think i'm going to sleep now since it's 1:00 and i gotta get up early tomorrow.

-Dav.Di

Phone

2005-05-11T18:33:00.000-07:00

Got a new phone/number today (645-1003) -- so now i'm part of my mother's plan ( 1200 min month for 4 ppl to share, and free nights/weekends/long distance.
-
Alltel pisses me off -- they tried 4 different times to trick me into thinking something was free and charge an assof money.
As it is, I got tricked into buying a shitty phone case.
Luckily I saw through (most of) their attempts to rip me off and managed to piss everyone off.
But those places are stressfull and anger-inducing.
Specially when there are long ass lines and two people working.
-
I have a physics and pre-cal test tomorrow.
I also have an english paper due.
-
Hopefully I'll be ready for tests/finish paper in time.
-
I'm so stressed I cant even think strait...
-
Leave some;

--Dav.Di

"The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had."

2005-05-09T13:53:00.000-07:00

Lotta shit going through my head lately.

I've just been sitting places spacing out.

--

My weekend was mostly boring.
Saturday night evan came and chilled w/ me.
Sunday I spent w/ mom and sister( mothers day )

--

Im in a real bad mood.

-David

Meep.

2005-05-07T12:22:00.000-07:00

This weekend has been substandard so far.

Buncha shit goin on with my dads job.
Still worried about some other things I don't feel like talkin about in here.
Havent had a ciggy in 3 or 4 days, so i'm healthy and anxious as hell.

Last night I went to the lobster races w/ Steffan and Amy which wasn't too special, afterwords we went to Brewsters and met some ppl -- then went back to the lobster race w/ Bethany.

I didn't really do anything -- I just kinda stood there -- prolly looking stupid.

Lately I havent had anything to say, i've been so preoccupied and stressed with everything. I feel bad for people stuck hangin out w/ me -- I'm prolly really boring.

Anyways -- Today I took the SAT from 8 to 12:30
Then I was gonna do stuff with people (i gotta car, money, houseto m'self.ect) -- but noone called me back, so I guess im going to just sit here and feel crappy.

Still sick.

So I've had a pretty crappy weekend;

Mebee it'll get better before its over.
But most likely, i'll just fall asleep -- wake up tomorrow, goto church do homework and then go back to bed for monday.

-Me

The answer

2005-05-06T15:24:00.000-07:00

Searching through forums today -- I found a statement that sums up my life and it's meaning.
"A pair of Jumper Cables walk into a bar, and the bartender says, "I'll serve you a drink, but don't you two start anything!""

Poo=(

2005-05-05T17:54:00.000-07:00

Let me ask you this...
If the world is a better place than it used to be -- why are so many people unhappy?
--
Still sick -- ended up missing all of today.
--
Going to take the SAT Saturday.
--
Behind in English Pre-cal and German, hopefully i'll fix that by tomorrow.
--
I'm just sitting here sipping at my vodka -- hoping it helps me get some sleep tonight.

Last night I just rolled around in a frantic-sweaty and sore-throated sinus nightmare.
--
finally quit smoking.
(wish me luck x.x)

Sick--

2005-05-05T00:13:00.000-07:00

It's 3:00 AM and i'm not feelin well at all.

I can hardly breathe -- and im coughin a lotta stuff up outta my very-sore throat.

I just took some advil so hopefully I will be able to go back to sleep soon.

-- Other than getting sick I had a good day yesterday (wednesday).

After the AP Exam (which was utter rapage that I will not talk about) I went to Zaxby's w/ Ana, Cecil, Brad, Dane, and Danny.

After Zaxbys, Cecil and I went back to his house to watch Blade Trinity.

But like I said -- all good things have an end;
and It just ended when I got sick.

-David

"Be it a grain of sand or a rock, in water, they both sink the same"

2005-05-02T18:05:00.000-07:00

Why do people feel it necessary to cushion the truth?
I hate dancing around subject, I'd much rather everyone say what is on their mind.

Though I sometimes am a hippocrite on this subject, it really is a peeve of mine.
It could be human nature, but if thats the case -- then I think human nature is the suck.

I had a bad headache today -- and I was very nauseus and dizzy so I guess i'll call it a migraine.
-
Other than that, I had a conference w/ my english teacher -- got a lot of things settled. Still a bit peeved about a few things, but I think imma be alright in that class now.
-
Im still not feelin too great so I'm going to sleep now.

Gnight

-David

edit:

I just got informed that I am getting a job in Evansville Indiana working for my great uncle's coorperation: Cingergy Communications (http://www.cinergycom.com/wps-html/Home/).
I will be working June and July and staying up with his son. I am going to be working with technology (servers). This is a great opportunity not only to learn about networking.ect, but also working in a coorperate environment. Also-- If I like what I do, I can aim my college career towards that and maybee get a job with them afterwords.

This is good news for me.

smoking

2005-05-01T19:47:00.000-07:00

Recently I picked up a very nasty, unhealthy habit. I think I am going to quit before I ruin my health.

-

Today was tough -- I helped lauren move furnature into her new apartment.
I started feelin really nauseus around noon -- and then I got dizzy.

All seems better now, except i'm very tired.

I have a conference with my english teacher tomorrow -- so hopefully i'll get my grade situation straitened out. I have to make sure I dont get as angry as I did last time I talked to her;

I'm so tired -- it hurts to be coherant so Imma go crash

Imagine

2005-04-30T13:51:00.000-07:00

Imagine

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isnt hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...

Imagine no possesions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say Im a dreamer,
but Im not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

English = Crap?

2005-04-29T17:49:00.000-07:00

Stress...is killing me.
My dad's convinced he will be in next layoff; and the way things are looking, he may not just be paranoid this time.

He's most likely going to start an age discrimination lawsuit.

My mom's been overdoing everything, not sleeping, drinking a lotta vodka at nights, sick, tired lately which has been worrying me.

I almost assaulted a teacher this week; I was so angry at her I was red, shaking, and not thinking clearly. Luckily, self-control and the impending threat of jail calmed me down enough to not hit her.

She gave me 2 zeroes and a 50 as test grades on the notecards that I literally made myself sick getting done last week. Why? One might ask. Because of a couple little mundane mistakes, a typo, and unclear directions on her part.

After talking for the better part of a half an hour -- I got her to reconsider the grades, and fix the typo (one of the zeroes should not have been zero). But I'm still angry, I think most of the bad grades will stand. I find this to be a personal attack on my integrity - - with grades like that, people look at you in a completely different way. What really pissed me off though is the amount of work I put into those notecards knowing from the start that even my teacher thinks they are a worthless waste of time.

Today she made Bethany cry, so they had a looong conference whilst I waited outside ( she's my ride home since my car's dead as a dead guy). And apparantly with the help of her parents, they all made Mrs Johnson cry. Normally I'd feel bad, but this teacher has been doing shit to me for the last couple months that are unacceptable. I've just had a death in the family a couple weeks ago, and added to the above grievances -- this just is not the time to push me.

I seriously was about to assault the teacher

I dont think my parents have even seen me that angry before.

-David

Birthday...eh

2005-04-26T13:02:00.000-07:00

Today is my birthday;
Wasn't all to special -- lotsa pop-quizzes from teachers =/.
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Last weekend very fun -- I had a great time at prom (except my horrible dancing skills ><) With a beautiful date. afterwords we went to amy's house and chilled there till Sunday;
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I've been so stressed out lately. Even my friends notice how quiet I am and how lost I look.
-
One of my dads friends that he works with got layed off today -- He's still convinced hes next.
-
I hate not knowing what to say to people.
My life is always akward.
I dont know how people put up with me;

-David

Pictures

2005-04-24T07:23:00.000-07:00

Pictures -- I'll post later when I get some sleep/food/finish paper

Prom?

2005-04-23T09:09:00.000-07:00

Prom is tonight.
I have a spiffy looking Tux/hat/cane.
I dont know how to dance -- hope I dun fall on my face :)
Gonna picture it up -- party it up -- prom it up -- and then party it up again.

Last night I had some partyin'
but let's not get into that ;)

Today'll be fun.

I wonder how many people will get arrested/dead tonight -- hopefully nobody.

On another note;

Why do people look at you funny when you hold door's open for ladies these days?
I grew up w/ manners and being polite -- but it seems everyone else forgot how to be like that.
It's kind of sad -- maybee it's the feminist movement/" I can open my own door " attitude that a lot of women have... so now instead of being a gentleman I have to be looked at as wierd tomost people in my generation...

Just a thought.

I broke the status quo =(;

-Dav.Di

2005-04-19T17:46:00.000-07:00

Does going through life not expecting anything great or special make me a pessimist?
I'm not always nay-saying -- I just prepare myself for the worst so I am not suprised when it happens.

Today was a tusday. I skipped the first 5 hours of school-- took a test, sat around, and came home.
I saw in the news that they picked a new pope, one who is conservative on issues like abortion and homosexuality. I think that is a good thing. I was watching the news though, and I realized how much I hate the media. I gave up on cable years ago for the most part. It's one of those things that I love to have access to, but only use it when I have absolutely nothing else to do. The media represents America to the rest of the world, but they seem to be run by a bunch of radical "left wing " or " right wing " politicians who make our entire country look to be a shitty, evil, pro-death group of people who dont give a shit about the world. Thus, the world is very angry or at best apathetic towards us.

So, we all need to buy baseball bats and talk to the people that run the media coorperations and tell them how we fell about what they do.

Thats how i'd do it anyway.

-Dav.di

Talent . . .or instinct?

2005-04-17T15:03:00.000-07:00

In my life experience, women know how to do something irresponsable, piss you off, ruin something, and make YOU feel guilty about it all at the same time. Normally, I would say that's talent -- but I think all women can do that, so I guess its just primal nature. Sometimes I just want to go live on an island with a loyal dog that'll sit with me while I drink beer and watch the ocean.

--

This weekend was pretty average. Yesterday I spent the morning blowing stuff up -- until Lars accidently light a pile of gunpowder whilst crouching over it and burned the shit outta his hand (dont ask how or why).
--
Today i've successfully been putting off working on my research paper -- so imma be workin on that for a few hours tonight instead of getting much-needed sleep.
--
Next week will be particularly tough. I have to take a german test, quiz, a physics test, a german project, an english research paper, a pre-cal test, and a computer-science test. Saturday is prom, so Imma have to get my haircut sometime this week -- and win the lottery or something.
--

If you want to have a challenge, goto www.notpron.com -- it's a site with 120 riddles ( each riddle allows you to progress to the next page ), which are painfully hard. I spent at least 6 hours this weekend staring at them and im on lvl 13. And thats after cheating on a few. It's very addictive and a great time killer.

--Dav.Di

Vent.

2005-04-16T04:13:00.000-07:00

My last post was pretty angry.
I'm in a better mood today.
I was just starting to crack under all the stressful things piled up on me -- so I needed to vent.
Years ago -- I was twelve and had an uncontrollable urge to vent all the time. So, new to the internet and it's wonderful venting capabilities, I began a search for a popular medium to vent on. In my search, I discovered something called DeadJournal. DeadJournal is an -oh so popular- blog service where little 12-15 year old kids can bitch about there life. I found the perfect escape. Then, on my 16 year of existence I found something called Live Journal. By then I didn't have everything, everyone, and doritoes so I quite liked livejournal and the community of at least some nice people. As I was nearing 17 years old I realized how much of my life is devoted to google and its services. Out of loyalty, and need for a change, I switched to Blogger. Thus far, I have quite enjoyed Blogger. That is the history of my blogging, it's quite pointless really. Luckily though, Blogger has served me well. I did indeed successfully vent last night - leaving me with a clear mind and a good nights sleep.

Unfortunately, a good nights sleep isn't equal to enough sleep. I slept 6 hours last night -- which is indeed more than I have been getting, but not nearly enough.

And just like that it was gone.

2005-04-15T19:11:00.000-07:00

Well -- it's finally friday.
I was looking forward to today all week, but now it's here, i'm not to thrilled.
I've been a little pissed today for most of the day at quite a few people. Then I started to have a good evening, but now its later -- and I'm really angry again . . .

I dont know why, but i've been angry a lot lately but ...

Certain people are pissing me off...
I've been very stressed.
I have a research paper to work on..
My friends keep doing stupid-shit;
This summer is already committed to working with people I dont really know in a state i've never been too for at least 3 weeks, which is very stressful.
I'm going to graduate next year, and college is stressful.

Today on 3 seperate occasions I've been told that I always look lost, maybee that is true?

I went out w/ Brittany and Lane for dinner and had an alright time... I was gonna go out again tonight with some other people, but noone has called me and I'm sick of having to call people all the time -- so I think I'm just going to goto sleep.

Fuck you world :)

Stolen bitch

2005-04-13T16:49:00.000-07:00

Stole this little survey thing from wesley.
Have been in a foul mood this afternoon.

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey

Name:David

Birthday:4/26/88
Birthplace:New Freedom, Pennsylvania

Current Location:Aiken

Eye Color:Dark brown
Hair Color:Dark brown
Height:6'2"
Right Handed or Left Handed:Left
Your Heritage:Brazilian, Italian and some other things thrown in the pot :)
The Shoes You Wore Today:Vans
Your Weakness:No Confidence in self ( shy )
Your Fears:rejection, stupidity...
Your Perfect Pizza:Real cheese, real sauce.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Get through it, maybee w/ a girlfriend to keep me company =)
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:Doh >.<
Thoughts First Waking Up:FuckMcNuggets =(
Your Best Physical Feature: Tall? I never thought about it.
Your Bedtime:Weekdays it's usually between 9-11 Weekends it's whenever I get home/tired.
Your Most Missed Memory:Having breakfast with my family and grandparents at the beach.
Pepsi or Coke:Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:Bleh- BurgerKing if I have to pick.
Single or Group Dates:Both can be fun. Not much experience in that field sadly =(
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:whatever my sister/mother makes
Chocolate or Vanilla:Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Depends on the time/mood i'm in. Generally I drink Cappuccino at night or after morning, and Coffee early when I first wake up. Sometimes its viceversa -- depends how I feel at the time
Do you Smoke:On occasion, but not everyday.
Do you Swear:yes, but I try to keep it limited to when i'm around people who are not offended by it.
Do you Sing:Yes, if you could call that singing.
Do you Shower Daily:Yes.
Have you Been in Love:I'm only 16 - I doubt love exists with people so young, despite what others say.
Do you want to go to College: yes
Do you want to get Married: yes
Do you belive in yourself: Not very often
Do you get Motion Sickness:nope
Do you think you are Attractive:Mixed feelings about that :)
Are you a Health Freak:Nope, but I do goto the gym every few days.
Do you get along with your Parents:Yup - at least most of the time.
Do you like Thunderstorms:Very muchly so.
Do you play an Instrument:Tuba, kazoo
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:yes - but just a little bit.
In the past month have you Smoked:yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:Nope -- I've gone out with my share of girls, just not on a " Date " -
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:Nope
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:Nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:Nope
In the past month have you been on Stage:Yup
In the past month have you been Dumped:Nope - havent dated anyone either though =/
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:Nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:Nope -- but I think i've been stolen from.
Ever been Drunk:Maybe a few times, but not shat-faced. I dont like losing control of myself, but I do enjoy a glass of wine/vodka/beer/brandy/whiskey every once in a while.
Ever been called a Tease:Yes.
Ever been Beaten up:Nope
Ever Shoplifted:Nope.
How do you want to Die:As an old man who can reflect on his life and have nothing to regret... or an old man who fell asleep while skydiving :)
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A Happy, gainfully employeed father.
What country would you most like to Visit:Italy,Brazil, or Germany

In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Blue - or something that stands out.
Favourite Hair Color:Darker colors.
Short or Long Hair:Depends on the person
Height:Depends on the person
Weight:Healthy; Not fat, but not a stick either.

Best Clothing Style:
casual whatever is comfortable.
Number of Drugs I have taken:Legally a whole lot. Illegal drugs I've never consumed.
Number of CDs I own: I've bought maybee 5 cd's in my life. I have 300+
Number of Piercings:None.
Number of Tattoos:None
Number of things in my Past I Regret: I'm too damn shy. Slacking off in school. Not taking care of myself as much as I need to. Treating people badly.

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Well -- there you go, my faithful readers, you now know more about me than you probably cared to know.

I'm really in a bad mood though, so I'm going to put some music on, and look at some good ol' physics.

Back.

2005-04-12T18:59:00.000-07:00

School's back.
I have one Pre-cal test, and a german test/quiz left to take before I'm all made up.
It wa pretty easy getting back into the Swing of things. The only problem i'm having is that I have been horribly fatigued -- and being so busy all the time isn't helping.

Today, I went to a band thing (Concert Festival). I really didn't want to go, but my grade was threatened and I cant afford to have my GPA drop.
It was very dull -- but the car trip was fun to chill w/ friends.
Afterwords we ate cold pizza at a crappy resturaunt. I think it was just saltines with cheese and tomatoe sauce on em.

Now I am going to write my english teacher an e-mail about my research paper and get some rest.

-Dav.Di

Dipropylene Glycol

2005-04-10T17:47:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the pesamistic post last night but I was in a foul mood.
Today started out kinda rough -- I've been having terrible insomnia lately, and I wake up early all the time. I fell asleep at 1:30 last night and woke up at 7:20 to get to church at 7:30. I actually came home afterwords and took a nap for an hour before my dad woke me to goto Agusta w/him.

I had a good time in Agusta. My dad's a pretty cool person -- He can say some angry things, but if you are good at not getting pissed off -- the conversations always turn back around to something interesting.

I've gotten in hour-long arguements w/ him before - sat there pissed off for 30 seconds - and then just started another conversation. I hate holding grudges.

But anyways we hit up Sams club, Best buy, and the regal cinema to see Sin City.

Sin city was a very good movie -- a little "over the edge" with the violence, but It didn't phase me too much. I'm very lucky my daddy was there to put the boobies and murder into context for me or I could be a really bad man right now. It's hard to sound sarcastic on a blog so I settled for italics x.x.

The movie was interesting though - - if nothing else it was unique.

-Dav.Di

Cheese Triangles (2)

2005-04-09T21:46:00.000-07:00

I've been in a horribly foul mood for the last few days.
I think i've been an asshole to people lately.

I dont think i've had more than 5 hours rest a single night this week -- and thats not because I like staying up late and waking up early.

I'm terribly tired - stressed - anxious - and angry.

That's all.
I dont have anything else to say.

news is interesting.

2005-04-08T08:58:00.000-07:00

A beer truck flipped over on a roadway overpass in Halifax, Nova Scotia, Monday, prompting local officials to comment on the tragedy.

"It is sad," Capt. Scott Logan of the Halifax Regional Fire Service (search) told The Daily News of Halifax. "Chances are they won't recover any of the beer."

The truck, hauling 46,368 bottles of Alexander Keith's India Pale Ale (search), skidded to a stop against the overpass's guardrail, luckily avoiding a 50-foot plunge down to another road.

The female driver was pulled out of the cab uninjured — "more frazzled than hurt," according to Logan — letting rescuers focus on the calamitous aspects of the disaster.

"I had a tear in my eye, actually, when I was watching it," said police Constable Mark Hobeck. "It was full of beer. We were hoping a Hostess truck full of pretzels would come by, but no such luck."
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haha found that amusing.

Zorba's

2005-04-08T07:04:00.000-07:00

LastnightI went to Zorba's w/ Bethany and her family. Nick Trivelas (father of Mark) has a greek band which performed and they were very good (www.greekband.com).

There was also a belly dancer there -- Mr Edwards gave me a 5$ bill to stick in her pants because he said he'd get in trouble w/ mrs edwards if he did it. I shoulda asked for change -- but that was pretty amusing. She shook her booty at some little black boy and made him turn red :D.

I decided that I could be a darn good belly dancer... maybee I should try it out one day? (j/k)

Afterwords I went w/ bethany to get some coffee at Solomans Porch. . . Which turns out to be some wierd self-made cultish christian church (www.aikenoasis.com). Dont know too much about it, but it seemed interesting.

Well, the pope's dead, millions are grieving and showing support for him. Even the media is being respectful. I think people in this country are finally getting sick of all the shit going on and are beginning to turn back to faith again. . . Just a thought, but it seems to have some truth in it.

It's morning -- gonna go enjoy my last day of break.

Dav.Di

When the lights go out in the city.

2005-04-07T13:38:00.000-07:00

Bored day.

Went to the gym.
Went to get some food/gas/bankstuff with my sister.
Sat here.
Showered.
Sitting here

Hope things pick up.

On another note, happy birthday Evan(o).

Peace.

-Dav.Di

Strait Up Chillin (o.o)

2005-04-05T16:42:00.000-07:00

Well -- spring break is slowly progressing;
Sunday night, I went 0ut to Bethany's house where Lane, Danny, Erin B., and her friend gathered.
After a little sittin around, we all went to Mi Ranco and had a nice healthy mexiCAN dinner.
Afterwords they all went to the track, and lane and I took a 10 min detour to goto his house and grab some stuff; When we got back, they were all playing at the playground -- About 30 min later, we realized that under-sized playgrounds are waaay too much fun to be healthy and we headed home.

Monday I worked on my PC -- and got it formatted/working again -- Dane,Jeff, his brother, Sergey, Wesley, and Lane all chilled out at my house for a while.

Today -- Melissa, Kali, Wesley, and John came over to hang out. We had a good ol' time.
At 4:00 ish I went to play Paintball with some peeps. It was waay too hot to play, but we had a good time. I didn't get any kills, but I was able to make an entire team retreat -- and I splattered paint on a person or two;

That brings me to now, I'm sitting in my room listening to music trying to figure out what I am going to do tonight.

In the news, they seem to be tightening up on border security

" WASHINGTON — Americans will need passports to re-enter the United States from Canada (search), Mexico (search), Panama (search) and Bermuda (search) by 2008, part of a tightening of U.S. border controls in an era of terrorist threat, three administration officials said Tuesday. "

I'm not sure how much this will help the problem -- It seems that a lot of people are just crossing the borders off-road style. . . There was talk about a group of people monitoring the borders on their own and keeping people from infiltrating the country. This, if not already, is very close to vigilanteism -- which I dont have a huge problem with. If we wait on AmericaInc to do everything then things will never get done.

[/random thought]

-Dav.Di

Is David King going to have to choke a bitch?

2005-04-02T22:04:00.000-08:00

[music |Modest Mouse - Bukowski]Today was great day, up until it got shitty.

I wanted to go see Sin City with a friend.
I got to the theater, and they told me I was not 17 so I could not get a ticket (my birthday is in a couple days)
So I got my sister to get me a ticket, but when I went to be seated -- they told me I had to have an adult with me.
I got my sister to buy a ticket and watch it with me, but she didnt like the movie at all, and felt bad so she left.
10 minutes later, they came up to me and said " Your adult left, come with me ". I was kicked out of the theater right when the movie got interesting.
I got my sister to come back and raise hell -- but they didn't want to give money back to me. I raised more hell and thought very angry thoughts -- which definately reflected through the way I looked at the guy and veins started sticking out of my neck.
Finally I got my money back after a lotta of bullshit from those managers.

Apparantly, in the next two or three weeks, I will learn something about life that will give me tho strength and intelligence to understand the violent adult themes depicted in a fictional movie and without regal cinema's devine intervention, there would be another shooting somewhere that wasn't really anyones fault but the society that let the murderer see a violent movie on a saturday evening.

I am going to go now and play counterstike whilst pirating Sin city

Sad Times

2005-03-30T19:55:00.000-08:00

Last thursday I went to Pennsylvania to see my great uncle who was dying of cancer.
He was moved to a hospice on last friday, and he died 2 hours after we saw him.
The viewing was Monday.
The funeral was Tuesday.
I spent today driving back to Aiken.
I've been sick since Saturday, and I have 2 projects to do by tomorrow.

Please shoot me now.

-Zeus

Tuxedo

2005-03-20T07:06:00.000-08:00

I ordered the Tux imma be wearing to prom:

That tux is pretty tight -- it has a pinstripe tie, and vest. Looks really coo' in person.

Ooh -- and I just could not resist the hat:

Peace.
Dav.di

Queens of the Stone Age - No One Knows.mp3

2005-03-19T12:31:00.000-08:00

Not much is going on these days -- I got over the flu/bronchitus I had last week so I'm back to my functional self again.
-
I'm done dogsitting those 2 monsterous rottweilers (Baby and Lance) so now I have a healthy sized check in my wallet ready to be cashed in on monday.
-
With some money to my name -- I bought some gas for once. 20$ for 3/4 a tank. I wanted to kick something or someone, but I sucked it up and handed my money to the undeserving disgruntled employee at the gas station.
-
Gonna go get a Tux for prom sometime today. Bethany has a ' Punch ' colored dress -- it'll be interesting figuring out how to match with that.
-
Life is not too bad these days -- I was thinking about it, and I realized that in another year I will be an adult. I hope I made the best outta my childhood, if nothing else -- I learned a lot.

Dav.Di

:'(

2005-03-12T09:16:00.000-08:00

I'm very sick right now -- and have been since thursday. It started with really bad asthma and me not being able to breath. Then I started coughing up green crap outta my lungs. Then I had a fever. Then I'm bed-ridden. I dont know what I've got, but my throat and chest hurt so bad now -- it feels like im coughing needles.

Hope you're all better than I am

Dav.Di

Ehh

2005-03-02T06:49:00.000-08:00

Couldn't wake up this morning -- Everyones sick in my house -.-;

I think imma try and get to school for 2nd half of the day -- I cant afford to miss really.

English and math are being quite the satans' lately, I think I missed a test this morning.

I'll post later when I feel better.

Lithium Ion

2005-02-27T15:10:00.000-08:00

Today is Sunday. I had an okay weekend, didn't get to do all that I wanted but had some good times; This week from now (6:00) on is going to be a very tough week though.
This week:
Monday -- will be shits and giggles.
Tuesday-- most likely the hardest day of the week -- A precal test from hell on subject matter that I have trouble solving, a physics test that I dont even know what chapter its on, presenting my recitation for Macbeth and analysis -- which I am nervous/not prepared for.
Wed-- Who knows
Thurs-- No clue
Friday-- Leavin to the beach for the weekend

So if I make it past Tuesday, I might be okay. I dont really wanna go away for the weekend -- but maybee a couple days at the beach might do me good;

paT lanipS sI sihT

2005-02-21T17:38:00.000-08:00

LAN parties are fun -- even small ones. I had one today with about 6 ppl overall; Small, but it was a good time. I used to enjoy em because it gave me a chance to socalize ( something I never did). Now that I am more social I find that they are still quite fun. Games for me are a form of Escapism and being able to forget about responsibilities for a day and just chill out with friends playing games can be quite the dopamine enhancing experience.

Tomorrow is Tuesday.
I'd be looking forward to this week if it werent for my english and math class.
I was reflecting on this year the other day and realized that those classes are my main sources of stress and anxiety.

I think my birthday is coming up. I'll be 17. The only real highlight is i'll be able to drive as late as I want -- but I dont really think that will be any different than now.

I think I need to sleep;

-David

and/or sucrose

2005-02-20T15:50:00.000-08:00

Its sunday -- weekend has come and gone. Luckily, tomorrow is presidents day so I get to stay outta school for another 24 hours. In celebration, I've decided to host a LAN party;
It was last minute -- so I dont know how well it will go, but it has to be better than sitting around all day.

This weekends goin by okay, I've basically spent it chillin out at ppl's houses -- or back here. Lately lotsa people have found entertainment in my room -- I think its because I have internet,music,dvd's,surroundsound,and cable all in a comfortable setting.

Yesterday I went out to outback w/ lane and brittany -- which was fun. I only met Brittany once before for about 30 seconds -- so it was neet getting to meet a new person/make a new freind.

I've been in a foul mood today for some reason, I just realized it a little while ago. There's so much shit thats going on lately and with my dad all but convinced hes gonna lose his job in the next month, I dont know what im doing anymore. Despite the happy appearance I put on for friends and family, I've been going crazy, anxiety, apathy.ect/ for the last couple months.

Hopefully tomorrow wont suck, and today will get better. If anyone that reads this has family that works at SRS -- you have my sympathy;

-David

WARNING: keep away from children

2005-02-16T14:34:00.000-08:00

Its a week. Tomorrow's a thursday, I guess that makes today wednesday.
I've been doin stuff after school all week long so it definately has felt like a friday since monday...
Layoffs at the site got approved -- so my dad is stressin even more ( if thats possible )
I've got no plans for tonight -- except for gym and sleep. Hopefully in that order;

still feelin kinda crappy -- i think the air around this town is broken.

Happy wednesday;

-dav.di

Day

2005-02-14T16:28:00.000-08:00

Today's valentines day;
I was gonna get some valentines for ppl -- but the weekend kinda passed me by.
I feel really bad, but in all reality -- I never thought valentines were very special -- I always figured giving someone a gift on a normal day would be much more ' Romantic ' than giving them something when its expected.

School was tough today, my teachers all went into evil-robot mode on my arse and pop-quizzed and tested me till I wanted to yell.

In band today- - steffan and I ate a carnation that we stole from danny. It tasted like good salad, with some ranch it'd be great. I also found out that they consider carnations as a delicacy in Vietnam so we're not the only ones.

Sunday was spent re-arranging my bedroom. I got a new full sized bed -- so now I have a comfortable place to sleep that I actually fit on :P

Thats an update for yah, hope you're all having a good day/week.

-dav.di

Fridays are -- fun;

2005-02-11T19:45:00.000-08:00

Today was a good day,
School wasn't too bad--
Pep Rally was kinda teh suck;
After school I took bethany out to the AHS vs SAHS game;
girls and guys games were really good;
Afterwords we drove out to the waffle house and got a bite to eat;
Overall I had a good day.

My throats been kinda sore today though, so hopefully some Advil, rest, and throat drops will fix that.

Peace
-David

"Football is a feted cesspool of repressed homo-eroticism"

2005-02-11T03:10:00.000-08:00

Almost would say its been easy;

Interims came out yesterday -- I have a bunch of C's -- which is disheartening.
I should be able to bring em up though (most are only 1 or 2 points off).
Luckily its only third quarter and I have several months left to fix what I broke.

I wanted to give blood at the blood drive yesterday, but apparantly my bloods underage (17);
Isn't that silly?

My grandma also went into surgery for her arm yesterday -- and things went well from what I hear. Which is a good thing.

To sum it all up -- Life's been treating me fairly lately so I cannot complain at all.
-Dav.Di

Winding down

2005-02-05T20:49:00.000-08:00

Last week was pretty tough getting through -- I was feelin really relaxed after school just about every day, but when I got to class the next day it was really tough. So essentially -- every day was a friday and god just cancled the weekend. This weekend on the other hand was pretty fun up to now. On friday -- I went to the gym, then I met up w/ Bethany, danny, diana, karen, andrew, john, the nelson, and stew to go play some laser tag. After that we got some coffee and then came over to my place and chilled.

Today I got a haircut and then went over to the gym again. After that I chilled out until 5 ish when I went to the Pizza Joint in Agusta w/ Steffon, rob, tom, and some other guy. After that Bethany and Steffon came over and watched half of Saw. -- I dont have any plans for tomorrow except for church in the morning -- and possibly doing an extra credit project for Mrs Johnson.

I'mma goto sleep
it's almost midnight and a half.
Peace

Mentha Piperita

2005-01-31T17:10:00.000-08:00

The weekend was pretty fun, despite saturdays slowness;
I played paintball for a little bit on sat -- we all ran out of co2/time so it wasn't for long.
I havent been feelin well at all today, I think theres some bug goin around.
I realized that I have no clue on what I want to do with my life these days, its a very dismal thought.

I have a Brit Lit test tomorrow on Macbeth
I have a Pre-cal test Wednesday on graphing sin,cos,tan,sec,csc,cot functions + inverses; It wouldn't be so bad if it was gonna be a normal class, but its on homeroom schedule so I'm gonna get dominated.

I got a C on my last physics test (83). Thats pretty good for one of his tests for me, but I could have gotten an A but I didn't get to even start the last two problems (time). Thats usually how it is for me in his class, so I automatically start out w/ a B when he starts to grade.

I tried to goto the gym today, but I felt horrible shortly after getting there -- so i'm home now debating if 8:00 is too early to sleep or not.

I hope I feel better - - everyones sick these days and sick is no fun.

Peace
Good Luck
-Dav.Di